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The Story We Know Too Well
There was a distant, far away world being drowned in a flood
And everyone who witnessed it thought they understood
They tried to reach the world and keep the water at bay
But their hearts grew tired when the storm wouldn't quickly go away
So the far away world was left to fight the storm alone
But the water was heavy and its hard to carry burdens on your own
The storm raged on and the lonely world grew weary
Sinking ever faster with the load it had to carry
The distant world became bitter and its skies began to cry
Adding to the ocean below and raising the waters high
When the sun finally came out and dried away much of the sea
The sting of abandonment stayed, and forever alone the world vowed to be.
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Why?
I don't understand why my eyes are dry
When my heart is being torn in two
The physical pain is unimaginable
But my heart hurts worse because I loved you.
I don't understand why you didn't tell me
That that was our last goodbye.
Why did you let me believe in tomorrow
Did you know that I would die?
Its not a physical death that I mean
That would be a mercy at least
Its a slow and torturous losing my mind
Like a monster that's savoring a feast
Something is squeezing my heart
And I can no longer breathe
But I stay alive through the torture
A sword that refuses to sheathe.
So why did the tears stop?
Its like this state is worse
Did I love you too intensely?
Maybe that is my curse.
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I Wish I Could Tell You
I wish I could tell you
All the things I said
When I knew you couldn’t hear
When all the words were in my head
I wish I could tell you
All the things you’ve done
Because “goodbye” wasn’t the end
It had only just begun
I wish I could tell you
Every night I cried
Every little breakdown
Because the old you had died
I wish I could tell you
The piercing in my heart
Then the dull aching
I remember that part
I wish I could tell you
All the laughs we had
Random little things
My memories make me sad
I’m too scared to tell you
All of this and more
The things I need to heal
Because I’m hurt to the core
But I wish you would tell me
That you love me still
That you are sorry
But I know you are ill
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You Didn't Choose Me
You didn’t choose me
So now I’ll never stay
You thought you had better?
You will rue the day
They say hell hath no fury
Like a woman who is scorned
Well revenge is also sweet
Like a woman adorned
I won’t just fall apart
I’d rather seethe in anger
I’ve cried too many tears
Now fury is my anchor
I wish you could feel it
The hole you cut inside me
I could hurt you worse
But then, what would I be?
Would I be a monster
The way you have become?
Or would I be left empty
Would freedom never come?
You’ve never once been sorry
And I’m just supposed to forgive?
Well maybe that’s true
But how would I live?
But then I have to ask
How am I living like this?
My anger doesn’t touch you
You won’t drown in this abyss
Even if I say I would
I would never actually do it
Hurt you like you hurt me
That’s not me one bit
Maybe I’m a better person
More decent I am sure
But I don’t know how to let go
Or if my pain has a cure
I am still
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Can You Hear Me?
Do you see my silent anguish,
Do you hear my unuttered plea?
When no one else can see me languish.
Are you aware of me?
I read the Psalms and I say my prayers,
And I know your love is true.
But when I keep secret all my cares,
Do you know what I'm going through?
I know you remember the tears I cry,
and what each one was for.
But do you know the pain when my eyes are dry
Do you feel it even more?
When I'm just sitting here, on my own,
Not even thinking of you.
Are you thinking of me when I feel alone,
Are my thoughts what you're listening to?
This torture is too much for me
But not too much for you.
Will you come now, will you hear my plea?
Will you carry this burden too?
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For I Grace the Seas
I am a creature of the deep
I rule the seas while you sleep.
The land with all its rocks and trees
Cannot compare, for I grace the seas.
My people swim in the world beneath
And do not fear the things with teeth.
Their enemies will my wrath incur
For I am the queen of the Mer.
The ocean, to you, may seem serene
But beware for there are foes unseen.
My waves can pull your ships with ease
Do not be fooled, for I own the seas!
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One More Day
One more day and I'll see you again
One more day and this system will end
The struggle has been long
and the pain was so wrong
This isn't how it should have been
Just a little while longer and we will be together
Just a little while longer and life will be forever
No more fear and no more crying
No more wickedness and no more dying
Forgiving will be our last endeavor
The day will come when we laugh at pain
The day will come when leap again
Suffering will be a thing of the past
Love will be a thing that will last
With lightness of heart we'll dance in the rain
One more day and goodbye will be yesterday
One more day and I'll hold you and say
"I love you, I love you,
I missed you, I missed you."
One more day, just one more day
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Betrayal
I’m thinking about you again today
And oh how it kills my heart
I’m going over and over of what I would say
But I don’t know where to start.
 
We were so close, we had it all
Friendship and love and joy.
But you threw me away and ruined it all
Like I was an old, broken toy.
 
You said I meant something,
That I really mattered.
But when the ship started sinking
My heart, you just shattered.
 
I play it over again in my mind
And wonder what I did wrong
But it was you who I think was blind
The trouble was you all along.
 
You had this ideal of how it should be
Ignoring what you already had.
Blind to your actions you tried to reshape me
Making me feel so, so bad.
 
Maybe, after all, you meant only well
Perhaps you wanted me to be my best
But I don’t understand, when it went to hell
Why you ran and ignored the rest?
 
I guess in a way, I know you were scared too
Maybe that’s why you ran
You didn’t know how to follow us throug
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Flicker
The candles flicker in the night
Gives a glow of warming light
Soft shadows dancing bold
Laugh away the biting cold
But now it’s time to give up play
You cannot keep the night away
So turn it out and welcome dark
And dream until you hear the lark
Your blankets warm, your pillow deep
Close your eyes and welcome sleep
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Golden
Golden is this sun of mine
Bright and pure and old as time.
A blinding passion, a flooding rapture
with outstretched wings my heart you capture.
A sweet melody, a burning heat
a love that sweeps me off my feet
Your fire burns inside of me
It burns all walls, it sets me free
But there is pain, the deepest kind
a burden on my heart and mind.
It steals my breath, it rips my soul
Like sudden death it takes its toll
It dims your light and floods my heart
I'm drowning in this world apart
The cold and darkness eats away
I fall to my knees and begin to pray
The world falls away and I feel your power
A beacon in my darkest hour
I hear you calling and I run for you
Your light grows brighter and you pull me through
I know I can survive the pain
I know my love was not in vain
As hope and love my heart you embolden
I'll dream again because you are golden.
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Missing You
I don’t know where I am.
I feel like all is lost.
What’s the point in living,
If this will be the cost?
 
How could I have lost again?
How could you have gone?
What was the point in knowing you,
If pain is all I’ve won?
 
Grief is in my heart again.
It’s in my soul and mind.
It touches all my memories,
It’s all that I can find.
 
But if you were here and saw my pain,
You’d hold my hand and smile.
You’d tell me it would be okay,
It might just take a while.
 
I remember how you made me laugh.
And how we’d laugh together.
I remember all the stories we made,
Are you really gone forever?
 
How can a memory make me laugh,
If it also makes me cry?
How can the thought of you make me happy,
When we have said goodbye?
 
If I had never known you,
I wouldn’t be so sad.
But maybe that’s the point in life,
To cherish what we had.
 
So now may be the time for grieving,
But my memories are true.
They remind
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There was a distant, far away world being drowned in a flood
And everyone who witnessed it thought they understood
They tried to reach the world and keep the water at bay
But their hearts grew tired when the storm wouldn't quickly go away

So the far away world was left to fight the storm alone
But the water was heavy and its hard to carry burdens on your own
The storm raged on and the lonely world grew weary
Sinking ever faster with the load it had to carry

The distant world became bitter and its skies began to cry
Adding to the ocean below and raising the waters high
When the sun finally came out and dried away much of the sea
The sting of abandonment stayed, and forever alone the world vowed to be.
The Story We Know Too Well
I'm just dealing with some stuff and this came out. Some abandonment issues and grief. Not my usual kind of poem, I don't usually write them like a story, but I kinda like how it turned out. Thank you for reading!
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I don't understand why my eyes are dry
When my heart is being torn in two
The physical pain is unimaginable
But my heart hurts worse because I loved you.

I don't understand why you didn't tell me
That that was our last goodbye.
Why did you let me believe in tomorrow
Did you know that I would die?

Its not a physical death that I mean
That would be a mercy at least
Its a slow and torturous losing my mind
Like a monster that's savoring a feast

Something is squeezing my heart
And I can no longer breathe
But I stay alive through the torture
A sword that refuses to sheathe.

So why did the tears stop?
Its like this state is worse
Did I love you too intensely?
Maybe that is my curse.
Why?
I don't even know what to call this one other than "why?" Because all that keeps going through my head is that. Why? 

I wrote this because I'm not crying. I thought there was something wrong with me at first but then I realized that this is worse. Its like I hurt too much to cry. Crying would be a relief. 

I don't really know how to explain what's going on and I don't think I'll try. I'm afraid no one will understand why this hurts me so insanely much. It just does and I don't want to explain or defend myself. It feels like too much effort when I'd rather just die right now. 
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I wish I could tell you
All the things I said
When I knew you couldn’t hear
When all the words were in my head

I wish I could tell you
All the things you’ve done
Because “goodbye” wasn’t the end
It had only just begun

I wish I could tell you
Every night I cried
Every little breakdown
Because the old you had died

I wish I could tell you
The piercing in my heart
Then the dull aching
I remember that part

I wish I could tell you
All the laughs we had
Random little things
My memories make me sad

I’m too scared to tell you
All of this and more
The things I need to heal
Because I’m hurt to the core

But I wish you would tell me
That you love me still
That you are sorry
But I know you are ill
I Wish I Could Tell You
So I'm not as proud of this one as some of my other poems. I mean I think I could have worded things better, maybe worked on the flow. But I'm keeping it like this, I like it, because it is truly what I'm feeling. It came from very deep inside me. It was hard to write. I cried. I didn't used to write poetry to release my feelings. But my counselor has asked me to try it. I guess I took writing poetry for granted in a way. I did it for fun, which is great, I mean, that's how it should be. But it can be more and I am starting to undertstand that. This poem goes along with the last one my counselor asked me to write, You Didn't Choose Me. The back story is in the description of that one. When I wrote that one, I meant to write something different, but it took a wildly different turn, because I wrote what I felt, instead of what I thought I should feel. Same with this one, only I dug a little deeper.  
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You didn’t choose me
So now I’ll never stay
You thought you had better?
You will rue the day

They say hell hath no fury
Like a woman who is scorned
Well revenge is also sweet
Like a woman adorned

I won’t just fall apart
I’d rather seethe in anger
I’ve cried too many tears
Now fury is my anchor

I wish you could feel it
The hole you cut inside me
I could hurt you worse
But then, what would I be?

Would I be a monster
The way you have become?
Or would I be left empty
Would freedom never come?

You’ve never once been sorry
And I’m just supposed to forgive?
Well maybe that’s true
But how would I live?

But then I have to ask
How am I living like this?
My anger doesn’t touch you
You won’t drown in this abyss

Even if I say I would
I would never actually do it
Hurt you like you hurt me
That’s not me one bit

Maybe I’m a better person
More decent I am sure
But I don’t know how to let go
Or if my pain has a cure

I am still so angry
Maybe I'll always be
Maybe it will always hurt
That you didn’t choose me
You Didn't Choose Me
So this one has a bit of a back story. I am writing it because my counselor thought I should express my feelings toward my dad. I meant for it to be about how betrayed I felt. But it was 4:30 am and I don't know if its because I was tired, but, my anger at him came out instead of the betrayal.

As a disclaimer, I know my story isn't near as bad as some of yours. I used to feel guilty for how hurt I was. I felt like I shouldn't feel bad because others have had it worse. But I have come to learn that everyone experiences pain differently, and something small to others may seem very big to someone else. Your pain always matters. 

I was first taken away from my dad when I was 9. He promised me then that he would stop doing the drugs so I could be with him again. We were so close. He was my hero, maybe I idolized him. I was definitely a daddy's girl. So I believed him, when he said he would stop for me. Time passed and I was allowed to live with him part time again. But when my mom found out he was still doing drugs, she confronted him again. I was 12 this time. So, right in front of me, he said he was still doing drugs, and what was he supposed to do, keep lying? He said I wasn't good enough. That's not what he actually said, but to my 12 year old heart, that is exactly what he said. How else could it be that he would choose to keep doing drugs than to have me in his life? He didn't even fight for me. Our relationship has been strained, to say the least, ever since. I was allowed to visit him sometimes, but I hated it. I didn't want to see him anymore. I would act like I was sick so I didn't have to go see him. I hated him for what he did. I understand about addiction now. But I still don't really know how to accept that. I always felt like he didn't love me enough, and that is hard to let go of when you have felt it for so long.
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Do you see my silent anguish,
Do you hear my unuttered plea?
When no one else can see me languish.
Are you aware of me?

I read the Psalms and I say my prayers,
And I know your love is true.
But when I keep secret all my cares,
Do you know what I'm going through?

I know you remember the tears I cry,
and what each one was for.
But do you know the pain when my eyes are dry
Do you feel it even more?

When I'm just sitting here, on my own,
Not even thinking of you.
Are you thinking of me when I feel alone,
Are my thoughts what you're listening to?

This torture is too much for me
But not too much for you.
Will you come now, will you hear my plea?
Will you carry this burden too?
Can You Hear Me?
Just something I wrote because I'm feeling a lot of anguish and fear right now.
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Got this from a friend, hoping to use this to spread the love around dA a bit and help y'all get a few more features than normal :) (Smile)

Rules!
- The first 10 people that comment on this journal will be featured below and I'll choose three deviations I like most from their gallery!
If you comment, you must to do the same in your journal, putting the tagger (me) and three pieces of my art as the first feature.
The idea of this is not to get a free feature, it is to spread art around for everyone! Let's spread the love!

I got this from :iconthestormunleashed:
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Jessica
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Hi! My name is Jessica, I am 23, and I love to draw, paint, and write poetry. I may not be very good but I oh so enjoy it. xD I have two dogs that I adore. Ollie is my baby, an Australian Shepherd who is 3 years old. And then Cole, my Rottweiler/Beagle mix. I know, weird mix, but he's adorable! I also like to read, chat, and play games with family and friends. If you want to chat with me that's great! I welcome new friends. Don't be surprised if I start talking about my dogs or Doctor Who, I am a huge fan. I also love My Little Pony (yes even though I am an adult) So don't be surprised. xD Anyway, thanks for visiting my page!
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AnnaKirsten Featured By Owner Aug 5, 2015   General Artist
Thanks very much for your support, I appreciate it!! :heart:
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You're welcome, your art is wonderful!
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:wave: Jessica!
Thanks for the :+fav: and comment. :handshake:
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SongsOntheWind Featured By Owner Aug 1, 2015  Hobbyist General Artist
It was an amazing poem! And thank you for commenting on mine too, it really made my day!
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Thanks again and you're welcome, friend :)
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